Broken

in response to Daily Prompt 

I never thought I’d be broken again after that whole thing with “Prince Player”. And then after “H”. And then after “Scientist”. When things ended with my fiancee, I thought you’ve got to be kidding me.

Because, who. Gets. This. Broken?

It was hard losing both a fiancee and a job and coming back home.

The stares at holiday parties.

The nosy questions from relatives and neighbors. 

The endless job applications with multiple rounds of interviews only for rejections. 

Why? Who did I piss off? To be given this much pain?

“It will only make you stronger” they say.f95ba420213742298c05b87bffe3506a

I WAS ALREADY STRONG!! I want to shout.

“Time heals all wounds” they say.

No it doesn’t. It may seal my wound gradually, but that wound will always still be there I want to say.

“You’re still applying for jobs?” they ask.

How dare you I want to say.

But I don’t. Because of the others. The others who say:

“I’m praying for you”

“I believe in you”

“You are a strong person, but this is too much for one person to handle. And I am so sorry this happened to you”

“I am here if you need advice. Or just listen”

“Don’t ever let anyone tell you how to feel. Because only you know how bad it it is. And how bad it makes you feel”

“You are about to become something amazing. And I can’t wait to see”

You guys. Are my rocks. And because of you, I rise. And feel a little less broken every day.

-S.

9 thoughts on “Broken

  1. It is okay to feel broken. And it is okay to broken and strong. And I agree… Only you know how bad you feel about everything that happened to you. You don’t owe anyone an explanation. *big hugs* from this stranger.

    • Thank you so much Catherine ❤️ So sorry, was actually trying to write your letter last night- and nothing would come to me!! Please do let me know some things/topics that interest you so that I could write you something lovely 🙂

      • There is a lot about me on my blog, lol. But the short outline is this: I am 36, married with 3 kids. Living in Luxembourg and working as an educator in a nursery. I struggle with my inner balance (mental health), but I have a passion for writing – published a poetry collection in 2018, and for music. I love listening to music. I try to be kind and open with everyone I encounter, but since I am full of self-doubts, it is not always the easiest task. I love compliments, but I often react awkwardly to them. I think that was already a bit about me, lol. Enjoy your time. 💜

  2. I know exactly how you feel. My boyfriend just recently snatched my whole heart out my chest. All this happened while my dad was going through leg amputations. My boyfriend completely did a 360 on me in the midst of all this. Somebody who claimed to be my bestfriend and love me more than anything. It does get better. It just takes time. I was completely broken but I’m fighting for me now. Sorry you had to go through that.

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