Today I am writing to our friend Meghan at Hey Meghan
Do you know, that you are my longest regular reader after Paul? Your first comment on my blog was in January of 2014 when you said “Ben and Jerry are the two best people to turn any bad day around! Hope your week gets better ! ❤ another struggle college kid”.
Hahahaha! I was talking about how I was having a stressful day and I had my then favorite Ben and Jerry’s ice cream flavor to cheer me up (it was called “Scotchy Scotch Scotch” which was a limited edition). I sadly don’t eat Ben and Jerry’s anymore. I’ve been very serious about my gluten-free diet and am trying gluten-free desserts. It’s going pretty well.
When you first appeared on my blog, I loved you because we are so similar. We both have dogs who both have our hearts, we both majored in a Sciences degree in college, and we are both currently working in a lab making people’s lived better!
We have also battled hardships in anxiety and love. I know you talked about these lately on your blog.
You are my only reader who told me my letter can be about anything I want, including me telling you about my day or even making up a story! Well, here’s the thing Meghan. You may have read in my last post that I had a few crappy days lately.
And I’ll tell you why. It’s actually really silly. And personal. But since you and I are similar, I feel you may understand.
So as you may have read in my the post before my last post, ever since my last relationship- I have been really scared to enter a new one. And everyone around me is in a relationship. You see, even my parents who have had troubles in their marriage just celebrated their 30th anniversary on Tuesday. And then, my brother announced that he may possibly be moving to California soon. We asked why. He said it’s because his girlfriend (OF 8 YEARS) got into grad school there and he is thinking about proposing when she is done!!!
“See, your brother has someone. Don’t you want someone?” my mom asked.
Ugh. And that just upset me.
It’s not like I haven’t been trying. I have pushed myself and been on a few dates since that last relationship. But none of them have been that great.
In fact, my last date was with a nice med student from Harvard right. And he actually said something…not so nice to me. I told my mom about it so she can leave me alone.
And you know what she did??? She told my dad!
Meghan, let me tell you about my father. I am my father’s only daughter. If anyone says anything/does anything mean to his daughter, he is upset.
And let me tell you, he was.
I was livid. My mom wasn’t supposed to tell him. That was supposed to be a secret between me and her.
I was wondering why my dad kept asking me “everything okay?” whenever I call him. And this is why.
Sigh. So yes. I don’t even need to get started about all my friends in relationships. Okay not all of them are in relationships, but my close friends are.
And no I’m not saying I’m jealous, I’m saying I hate when they intrude into my life and ask me about my love life.
Listen Meghan, I don’t know if you ever felt this way, but- I’m doing me. For the first time in my life.
I used to be the most successful woman in my family, now I am the most successful in all of my family. I am the only one that will have a Master’s, the only one to go to a top 10 school, the first one to pop on Google when we type our family last name, and the first female to work in politics. In my family.
So…why must I have someone? Yes, it would be nice. But right now, I’m doing great without one.
You’ve wrote about love on your blog, so I thought you would understand 🙂
I know that if you lived close to me, we would probably be the best of friends ❤ I can’t wait to read your posts about baby showers, bachelorettes parties, your dating life, moving updates and the medical marijuana debate!!!