Every day is some new interesting twist in the life of Shaz.
And it’s not “Prince Player” this time, it’s “Heart”. I think it’s sad (and great) that I can be more civil with “Prince Player”.
Last week, after releasing,Forgiving Prince Player,I bumped into him. I felt my stomach clench, but I told myself that I should be the bigger person and deal with it.
I thought I’d go over to him and ask how he was doing. I pulled my bra straps up and tossed my hair.
“What on earth are you doing?” My guy friend sitting next to me wanted to know.
“Um…..” I glanced over at “Prince Player”.
“Oh no. Don’t.”
“Shut up. I’m just gonna go check on him” I said as I walked on over.
And so I called out his name. He instantly turned to me so I leaned over. I decided I was gonna ask how he was.
“I really had a great time with you Saturday night!” Wait what? No that’s not what I wanted to say!
“What’d you write about me?” Oh crap.
“Good things actually. I didn’t say one bad thing about you!” I think he was flattered by this statement. He asked me if I changed his code name. Ha! No, not yet. We shall see how our “friendship” continues.
On to the next man, “Heart”. Holy shit. You’re not going to believe this reader.
***Okay so this is the section where I was supposed to write about the sickening news of “Heart”…. that is making us have a “war” but I decided that a) war is not a good word and b) there are some things a blogger must keep private.***
Sorry I got you on the edge of your seat reader 😦 But to be honest, I initially wrote the whole post with all the details about “Heart”, and I realized- I’m only writing all of that mean stuff about him because I miss him 😦
Let’s be honest. I miss his rough hands in between my soft ones. I miss his big hazel eyes. I miss my head on his chest. I miss sitting in his lap. I even miss his beard that scratches my neck when he kisses me.
This is not a war between me and him. It’s a war within myself, I need to forget him and move on. Clearly, our “fairytale” does not have a happy ending.