Mercury retrograde as well as February is ending this week. Hooray! I can’t believe I’m almost there.
Today, I bumped into both “Heart” and “Prince Player”. You see, I always bump into them at once. There’s never a day where I only see just one of them, it’s always both. It just makes everything worse.
I can totally be human with “Prince Player” if it’s a casual bump and not a whole meeting. We say “Hi”, he asks “How are you?”, I smile and say “Good!” even though I feel like hell- you get the idea. Sometimes he even gives me a compliment, like today he said “I love your backpack!” It made me giggle, as that is probably the closest thing to a compliment I have gotten from him in the past few months. And then, he usually says “I’ll text you!” That means, he’ll text me after a month. Anyways, the point is, it’s getting easier to communicate with him. But “Heart” is a totally different story. I stop breathing and my heart starts to race when I see him. If he says something to me, I am totally speechless and don’t respond. Well, screw him and his beautiful hazel eyes. I’ve been hearing about him a lot lately, and it sucks. I’ve heard he’s an actor and a writer. Why in the world didn’t we discuss either of these things in our relationship? I love those two things and wish we could have done something with those hobbies. That’s what always kills me about seeing him, thinking about “what could have been”.
Whatever I learned in Chemistry last week is way over my head and I have an exam on Friday. Help me.
I miss my mommy already.
I got in another argument with my dad, and he told me to go read this book called “Sh*t My Dad Says” by Justin Halpern. Amusingly enough, the dad in that book is exactly like my father and reading it has made my father and I become best friends. I totally miss him now and recommend all of you read that book!
And I’m working on the stress day by day 🙂 I truly believe…better days are coming ❤